So, with difficulty, here we see Fraser pull himself back from the edge. Look at his visible hard swallow. Look at his hand beginning to shake as it holds the gun in Gerard’s face. Look at the shine of tears in his eyes, the shutting of his eyes as if to stop seeing what he is seeing (the man responsible for his father’s death). The way he works his lips, tongue, teeth in the last GIF. Fraser is mad as hell. (Excellent physicality of the emotion by PG, too, btw!)
Sure, some people will argue, “Well, he was severely provoked, and he pulled himself back from doing something stupid and violent.”
True. But. If he were 100% well-adjusted - like he acts for most of the rest of the series, like butter wouldn’t melt in his mouth - would he ever have drawn his gun in the first place?
I love angry, hurting, messed up Fraser. I just love him to bits and I long ago lost any ability to remove that headcanon from my mind, unless I’m writing a pinch hit for a very specific prompt or Secret Santa author letter with parameters very unlike my own, in which case I compartmentalize, and put myself in the shoes and headspace of the recipient, and see Fraser their way.
But in my own imaginings and headcanon - Fraser is pretty emotionally messed up. He’s doing the best that he can, of course. And, all things considered, his best is pretty good. (I’m not suggesting his grandparents were completely terrible surrogate parents, by any means. But. His late grandmother slaps her late adult son - which Fraser doesn’t even see; only Fraser Sr. sees/experiences that; that is canon.)
And while it is completely understandable that Fraser would be pretty messed up emotionally/relationship-wise, of course it would definitely have repercussions in his adult life and relationships.
I’m just saying.
And I love messed up Fraser. Love him. He is my favorite version of Fraser because it makes him so human, and not a Mountie superhero at all.
podfic, remix, translation (don’t forget about permission!)
of course, new fanworks!
Prompts are optional, and you can interpret the theme however you see fit. Wanna do something else this week or do the fanwork thing later? No worries! The AO3 collection is open indefinitely and I will be sharing everything tagged #ds30below or mentioning@ds30below.
